Not a Chance

Ugh, this is impossible.

You see, about every other month college suddenly springs to the front of my mind. You have no idea how much I want to get a degree in tuba performance at UW. Absolutely no idea. And yet, I've looked through the application process.

There's no way that I have any chance.

Seriously, ALL the major and minor scales, MEMORIZED!?!?!?! Who can do that? Not me. That I'm sure of. Not to mention I have to preform two pieces. I'm bloody horrible at preforming on my own. And I have no tuba to practice on at all, a tuba is between 3,000 and 20,000 dollars, and that's simply for one of cheap good quality. I have no chance to get into this school, or any school for that matter (though UW, is preferable, as I'm a resident of Washington, and there's a difference of 16,000 dollars a year for the undergraduate program [less difference for the graduate program, but still...])

Ugh, I want to go to this school so badly. Nobody can have any idea how much. And it doesn't help that I'm not with a good group of musicians to be learning with at school. About half our class is given over to discipline, and lectures on life, simply because nobody manages to put any effort in.

Not to mention I don't have a lesson instructor. And I also need some skill on the piano (on which I can only play basic compositions in C position, probably with horrible technique as well.

Meanwhile I ache for the release of The Host. If only today could be tomorrow (actually, I need all the time I can get, so maybe I don't wish that, but still...).

No song for today, I'm not really in the mood...

Laters,

Oceansurferg